Experiencing the exhilaration of absolute power and invulnerability.

After I came back from my rest in Cuba, the Nazis and their supports made my life a constant hell.  I had people shooting off guns outside of my apartment at night, I had a neighbor who sat on his porch with a hunting rifle every morning as I went to go pick up a paper or a cold drink.  Gestapo agents raided my apartment and took documents every time I went out somewhere.  And when I did go out where there lots of people, I would be attacked, kicked in the ankles when I walked through a crown, and I was "accidentally" bumped into.  I was never safe no matter where  I went.


Things were so bad, I decided to have one of my conversations with God.  I was standing in the middle of my small apartment when I said, "God, what kind of people would destroy a defenseless, innocent, insignificant person like me?"  Immediately, I got my answer.  Suddenly I had a vision and I was swept up to a bluff on the side of a mountain which overlooked an expansive valley.  Down in the expansive valley below I could see two great armies doing battle.  It was mostly tanks and infantry, but it was ragging battle.



As I looked down on the war going on before me, I was suddenly overwhelmed with the thoughts and feelings that those people in that valley had one and only one purpose in life.  That purpose was to serve me, to do what I wanted and to die for me if that was necessary.  I wasn't just seeing this, I was that person standing there.  I was flooded with this overwhelming feeling of exhilaration of absolute power and invulnerability.   I had never had feelings like that before or since that day.  The indescribable exhilaration was a result of  knowing that other people only had one purpose in life - to serve my wishes and me.



At the same time I had this feeling of total invulnerability, I had this gut, visceral reaction of nausea, and feeling sick.  It was my reaction, not the person standing there, to the insane feelings of power that I was experiencing.


And then,  just as rapidly as I had been taken up to the mountain bluff, I was back standing in my living room.  I now knew what kind of people had ordered the destruction of my life.




You can run into people who think that everyone else on the planet is there to serve them.  You find them on the roads, in your neighborhoods, at work and other everyday places.  Fortunately, these people don't have the power to destroy your life or you.  They may be annoying and on occasion make you feel miserable, but they are seldom if ever a threat to you or your way of life.




The dangerous people with power are out there, but realistically your odds of directly becoming involved with them are low.   What are your odds of running into a serial killer?   Extremely low.  But there are powerful people of extreme wealth who think and feel that they are invulnerable.  And there are also people out there that get their power by association.  These people may not be powerful on their own, but they use their association with powerful organizations to make them invulnerable.  Corporate executives, corporate board members, and members of gestapo type groups like the CIA ("we are not responsible for anything we do") are good examples.   The knowledge that their organization will protect them no matter what they do gives them that euphoria and exhilaration of ultimate power. 


I had the misfortune of getting trapped by one or more of these sickos.  They are what I call fascist system approved "serial killers".  I always remember the admonition the an attorney gave me.  He said he had powerful clients who were not happy unless they were making some one else miserable.  The people who believe that all other people are on earth to serve them and their wishes.